about the hungry ghosts
"About the Hungry Ghosts," January 8, 2022 (#8)
title from interview with Shyam Selvadurai in Epiphany literary magazine (January 7, 2022)
Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body by Roxane Gay (2017)
Heavy: An American Memoir by Kiese Laymon (2018)
one line from Unforgetting: A Memoir of Family, Migration, Gangs, and Revolution in the Americas by Roberto Lovato (2020)
About the Hungry Ghosts
We will lie like Americans lie.
I could have more of the control I constantly crave.
Get back to flying and crashing because flying and crashing were what
these tormentors bind themselves in righteousness when
I wanted to fairly fight white folk and I wanted to knock them out.
Mostly I liked them because they had many pockets where I could hide
the books that mean the most to you. Lock your doors.
Unruly bodies that must be disciplined by any means necessary
haven’t told me the truth about your job. I think you’ve done
a necessary corrective to our culture’s toxic attitudes toward
problems that weren’t problems, the smooth jazz, the manufactured
services and legal advocacy on behalf of refugees inspired me to
end up burnt like the ashes if I didn’t change and give myself over to
how suddenly someone else’s blood was inside of me.
June 2009, Beale Street, Memphis, TN
1-2-22 of architecture book
1-6-22 painting in doctor's office
from "How the Artist Mickalene Thomas Lovingly Reconceives the Female Form" by Angela Flournoy, New York Times Magazine 10.17.21
1-8-22